My computer is in a coma!!! Please pray for it!

Yesterday, this guy came down and he had a problem the night before, and the guy that worked last night told me about it so I knew the problem but I didn't know how to fix it. Well basically his reservation wasn't in the computer and we couldn't find the history of his stay. So I was just going to give the guy a free night for the inconvienence, or at the very least take care of it later and fax him the bill. Katisha came out to the front desk and he got pissy and started being an ass. She asked if he had his receipt from the previous day and he said "no" but he said it like of course i don't have my damn receipt why would anyone keep it. which is retarded on his part. so she went in the back for something and then he turned to me and said "I think there is a receipt on the table in my room" so I asked if he had his key still and he said no, so i said ok i will go make you a new key and you can go get it. well i made the key and Katisha followed me back out. I handed the key to the guy and said ok, you can get it. he threw the key back at me and said "NO" so I took the key and just walked away to go get the receipt so we could stop dealing w/ his ass. Katisha said "NO, FUCK YOU! You don't treat our agents that way" lol. And then she called him ignorant and walked away. lol
damn i wish i would have stayed for 2 more seconds.
today is such a shitty day.
I was up at 230 am, coughs racking my body constanly until about 330 then i finally calmed down and was able to sleep after 4, then up at 445 reset my alarm to 530 blinked and it was 530. got up, jumped in the shower, started to blow dry my hair....I blew a fuse!! stumbled around in the dark, lit some candles, combed my hair, searched for a fuse box, found it, flipped the fuse back, computer won't turn on now, get dressed and run to the el, run up the stairs hop on the brown line, it starts going north so I freak out, this guy on the train was like oh we are almost at the next stop, and see that is the brown line going the right way if you run you can catch it so i run down one flight of stairs then up the other one, the doors start to close, but luckily the operator sees me and opens them again, I am about to die, the train goes back to my last stop, says everyone has to get off because it is going north, luckily the redline waited, got on the redline had to walk forever to get to work (really only 5 blocks) mcdonalds of course isnt open, get to work (w/o breakfast) change and clock in at exactly 7!!! I am starving. I am also all by myself until 930. I just had this strange Greek man kiss my hand and invite me to Greece. How odd.......
yeah but the trains are set up to where one track runs north and the other track runs south, and they are on the opposite sides so you have to go up a different flight of stairs depending on what direction you want to go, so i went up the right flight but it was the wrong damn train!! I HATE the CTA!!!!! I am thinking of asking the bellman to run to Dunkin Donuts.
Oh and Jamie came by the hotel yesterday and I met his sister. She is really nice. He also told me he can't hang out on sunday because he has to take more pictures of the escorts for his friend. After he complained multiple times of not being able to see me all week last week. At first I was like what the hell!. but he needs to pay for his camera. I was going to get him tickets to see the nutcracker but he is out of town this so sunday would be the only day we could do it. I told him about it yesterday. I will just have to find him something else for xmas. I already got him a movie, but I know he is getting me more than one thing so... plus I want to get him something else. His sister is funny. I can't wait til the 5th of January cuz then I get my insurance and I can go to the doctor. I have a feeling I am still going to be sick by then.

I had planned on xmas shopping today, and getting groceries and just doing all the stuff I neglect. Yeah, that didn't happen. Because the earliest appointment I could get for my hair and eyebrows was tomorrow at 6pm I decided to wait until either the next paycheck or the one after that. I also felt like crap when I woke up and didn't feel like going downtown to get money, so I laid in bed and finished the book for the bookclub. I have to go downtown tomorrow no matter what I feel like. I need money, and I need to get xmas presents for everyone.

While I was reading this book I felt very productive w/ my time. It wasn't like reading the trashy romance novels that I like, or zoning out in front of the t.v. I actually had to pay attention, but in a relaxing sort of way. It was nice, and the whole point of wanting to join the bookclub.

I did something today that I have never seriously done before. I thought about New Year's resolutions. I have a few

1. Have fun, and not nearly as much stress.
2. Finally get toned (had to throw that one in there)
3. Do stuff that's productive and not wastefull.
4. Make my apartment into a warm and inviting home that I like to be in.

Basically my resolution is to get a life. I have a job now, so that isn't holding me back any more, I have a few more friends now, all I need to do is get off my ass.

Interesting...at least for me

This guy was at our hotel awhile back. John freaked out over him, but I didn't even know who he was. He actually always wears a white suit. I got this article from a blog I read occassionally.

Alright I am posting twice today because I am so freakin bored!! No one has checked in since 7:30 and it's now almost 9:30. We have 18 check-ins left for tonight.

I am debating whether or not I should take 24 hours sudafed and then be completely out of it all day tomorrow, or not and feel like crap but do some stuff. I am leaning towards taking the suddafed, going to the bookstore, reading the books that I buy and playing Sims2 all day. Ahhhh that sounds nice. I feel really huge right now because I ate some chicken and mashed potatoes from our bar and grill. I have barely been eating the last 2 weeks because I have not had an appetite. Everyone at work is so sweet. Sherry called the last time I worked and she said "it sounds like you sick again...what are you doing for that cold? Are you eating? you need to eat!" and then the security officer who is kinda crabby w/ people took me to get cough drops and told me to get green tea w/ lemon and honey and then he came up to make sure I had gotten some. Everyone has been like "what are taking for your cold?" It's really sweet. I think I am going to see if I can leave an hour or so early. There isn't even a phone operator here. We had so many calls earlier. 2 hours til I get to go home. Then I am off for a glorious three days. I joking said to Jamie this morning, about my coughing "at least my abs are getting a work out" cuz i was coughing so much. Well now my abs are actually sore. I think I am going to try and add some links to the side bar.

What would you do???

About a month ago a guest sent Katisha, Sherry, and me flowers, then she wrote a note to the GM and today I get to work and she has given us Godiva chocolates. Yum. I still feel like shit and I am the only one working tonight, besides the manager who happens to be Toufik. Yea!

I didn't get a chance to pick up the books for the book club yet. That is just going to have to wait until tomorrow.

So the plot thickens w/ Jamie. Friday I went home from work early because I felt so bad, well he had to bring me a CTA card because I used mine up on him earlier and I had no way to get home. Well he offered to bring me some food or medicine whatever I needed. I asked him to drop off some chicken noodle soup and some generic dayquil cuz I am a baby. I waited for him to show up and I thought maybe he would walk me to the train or something. I wasn't counting on it cuz he had plans w/ his family and stuff but I was just gonna see. He got to the hotel, dropped off my stuff and told me he has someone waiting for him so he had to run. Now being the unsuspecting, trustfull person I am I thought "oh it must be his brother." So he left to do that and I went home. I have this sixth sense sort of, for finding out little stuff when someone is lying to me, just ask Kyle. Or Keith, he found that out when he went fourwheeling and after he invited me, then said that I couldn't go because it was a guys only weekend and then let it slip about a month later that there was another girl there. But anyway. I was on the computer and it showed that Jamie was idle. A little bit later I was running my mouse over Kenny's name to see how long he was idle and it hit Jamie's and it said idle for 19 minutes but this was a few hours after he came to the hotel. So I was like hmmmm, that's odd, why hasn't he called me if he's at home to come over. Well 11 rolls around and he calls and says his bed is lonely and wants to know if he can come over so I say yeah. Later on I asked him what he did after he dropped my stuff off, just out of curiosity and to make conversation. He asked if I really wanted to know. I said "yeah of course" He went to take pictures for promotional information for his friends escort service!!!!!! What the hell am I supposed to say to that? I didn't really say much because we are not serious or anything and all that and the girls don't bother me. What bothered me was that he had a couple of opportunities to tell me that is what was going on. He did go to dinner w/ his family. He said he was going to tell me but he didn't want to tell me at work. And then later he said the guy called the night before when he was w/ me. Why didn't he tell me then? Why didn't he tell me when he got there? Why did I have to ask for it? And why did he ask if I really wanted to know like he didn't want to tell me? It's silly. I have a huge problem w/ lying and keeping stuff from me. Kyle used to hide so much crap from me I don't even have to try to look for stuff it just falls in my lap. Keith would say that he felt like he had to watch everything he said around me after he slipped up that the other girl went w/ them fourwheeling and that I was looking for stuff to be mad at him about. That's not it at all. I don't need to look. When someone is hiding something they always let something slip. Plus why would he need to watch what he says if he is not hiding stuff from me? (He should only be watching what he says if he is hiding stuff, and then hell yes he better be on his toes cuz I ain't stupid.) It might be 2 months later but it will happen, there's no need to look for it. Plus Jamie kept bringing it back to the girls, saying stuff like, she stayed dressed, and she wasn't that pretty. Did I ask if she kept her clothes on? Did I ask if she was pretty. He kept making it out like I was jealous of the girl. Is there a reason I should be jealous? I was just like whatever I don't care about the girl, I just don't like that you didn't tell me about it. It just made it seemed fishy. It kinda ruined the weekend. It just made me feel all the shit I went through w/ Kyle and then today when he was touching me it got on my nerves. I used to hate it when Kyle touched me. Seriously is this my life? I want a refund.

At least I got chocolates, and I got 3 checks, a check for my hours, a check for working at our sister hotel, and sick pay. Go me!!! This check was as big as my monthly checks. I am ballin!!

Pics are now up on my webpage. Go to the link that says office party and it's the last album. They are mostly of the same people over and over and some where the faces aren't even in the pics but there are a few good ones in there too. The link to my page is on the right.

Jamie brought me a can of chicken noodle soup to work. He's so sweet. He was coming to bring a cta card so I could get home and he asked if there was anything he could bring and so he brought that and some dayquil. As I was heating it up I saw exactly what I was going to get him for xmas. I already planned on getting him tickets to the Joeffry Ballet's Nutcracker. (He likes the music from it and Rachel said it was awesome) I wanted to get him a tangible present too though and I just saw that Disney is coming out w/ Where the Red Fern Grows. He mentioned that that was his favorite book, even though he never finished it. I love that book!!!! So I am going to get that for him too. How cool is that. I will get him 2 really cool presents and neither one of them is too expensive. Alright I gotta get back to eating my soup and resting.

I am so sick. Dammit!! I have off 3 days next week. I need to sleep. Kenny just told me he has a new girlfriend, and she has the same personality as me. I have so much to add but no energy. Hopefully on my days off.

Star sightings and lots of drinking

Holy hell a lot has happened since I last posted. Hopefully my schedule will stop being so goofy at work and I will have more time soon. I was working at our sister hotel on Wednesday night and it is a small hotel and everyone who goes into the hotel, whether a guest or to the restaurant or where ever, we have to greet them. I was standing there and this guy walked in w/ his head slightly down and he was on the phone. Even though he was on the phone we still have to greet him (usually the people ignore us anyway) I thought to myself, "He looks kinda like Hank Azaria" (To clear up any confusion, or maybe add some, he does several voices on the Simpsons, was the nude scuba diver in Along Came Polly, and the dog walker on Mad About You, and he was married to Helen Hunt for a split second and he was the housekeeper who didn't wear shoes in Birdcage.) I said "Hello" in my chipper guest agent voice and he looked up, nodded and mouthed "Hi" and smiled at me. And then I thought to myself "OHMIGOD IT IS HANK AZARIA!!!!!!!!!!" and continued to freak out, which I am still doing today. He wasn't a guest at the hotel, he was eating at their awesome restaurant. He is in town w/ David Hyde Pierce for Spamalot. All the designers are staying at our hotel, and the writer of Monty Python and the Holy Grail is staying at the hotel I was at on Wednesday. The cast is having their party at the restaurant of our sister hotel!! I would so love to crash that, but I would get fired. David Hyde-Pierce would freak me out.

I was starting to get a little worried about being w/ Jamie. Me and Kyle were bestfriends, but there was really no passion, especially at the end. That is kinda how I was feeling w/ Jamie, like we were great friends, but I wasn't going to want to have sex w/ him like I wanted to have sex w/ Keith. Now I know that I am not going to want to have sex w/ every guy I date like I wanted to have sex w/ Keith, but at the same time I don't want an asexual relationship again or one where I am always dominate. Even though Jamie is really good at the stuff we have done the fact that he is submissive does nothing for me and in fact submissive guys can turn me off. Well last night he changed my mind pretty fast. LOL. Not about submissive guys, but the fact that I thought he would not like being dominate and that he would always want to be submissive. And have I mentioned how good he is w/ the ladies?!!!!! Ohmigod, I was in heaven and he spends quite a bit of time on them too. And he was talking dirty to me, now that's hot. It was great because we were both really into it. It's much easier that way, it gives me an idea what to say to him, and it makes me more comfortable when I say stuff. Making out w/ Jamie is fun, but I am still kinda worried.

I have always been a little jealous of the women who can have an orgasm just by having their nipples stimulated. I just can't be happy w/ multiple orgasms. lol. My nipples are very sensative and for the past 7 or 8 months I have thought that given some patience and alot of practice I just might be able to do it. Well one of the things that Jamie said last night was that he wanted to make me come just from playing w/ my nipples. I think we are gonna have to work on that one. It's a tough job but someone's gotta do it... right?

Last night after work and my class party, I went to Kincade's and met Jamie and his friends there. Mike, his roommate was there, and 2 guys that Mike works w/ were there. Jason and someone else. (I don't remember his name, but he was cool) I am surprised I remember Jason's name. I wouldn't if Jamie wouldn't have said it when he was leaving. We got so hammered. Jamie was drunk when I got there. We had 4 jager bombs, at least 2 other shots, and a mixed drink or 2, in a four hour period. I was completely sober until the last 2 jager bombs. Oh wait I forgot we also had a three wisemen shot and a shot of tequila. so that's 4 other shots. It was funny cuz I was taking all the shots faster than they were, and then Jason was like, I ain't gonna take a shot when I can watch her take one, lol. He was hilarious! He can make one eye cross and the other one be normal. It was cracking my shit up, especially since he wouldn't do it when Jamie was looking but as soon as Jamie turned away he would do it again. lol Ah the stuff that's funny when your drunk. He's from Oklahoma, and I love the musical, so we were trying to remember who the mean guy was in that movie. And we were singing the song in the cab ride back to Jamie's. Ok I was singing the song. lol So we all climb out because we were going to do some shots of Crown but Jason went home and we woke Ross up and then me and Jamie went and got a little busy on the couch. Good times Good times. This is really long, and all kinda fuzzy but I am pretty tired so I can't do any better. sorry. lol

Holiday Party

The night started off really crappy because I did not have anything to wear and it took me 30 minutes to realize this even though it should have been a given, so I didn't have time to put my make-up on and I barely did anything to my hair and I just threw on an outfit that was comfy but kinda blah, and then Jamie isn't at his and Ross' so I start walking to the pump room and I run into Ross who takes me back to his place and we find Jamie and we leave. We get to the Pump Room and see Mark (who is wasted and so funny and screaming because he is so excited that I am keeping the cat!) and Margo and her friend, Margo leaves, and we find Katisha who is getting it on on the dance floor. We get some drinks and sit at the best table by the dance floor and start ripping on people. It was pretty funny because I thought I was white. lol. Ron, the GM, had three black ladies surrounding him, dropping it like it was hot, Dan was dropping it like it was hot for Gio, Sharonjoy was shakin her ass to Toxic (she's really good I want her to teach me how to dance) I got completely wasted off of 2 mixed drinks and a beer. I went to the bathroom and Katisha and Alicia were in there and we were all sitting around waiting in line and here comes Mark into the bathroom and Rachel (forget where she works but it's alot higher up that me that's for sure, not the Rachel at the front desk) is trying to sing the draidle (I can't spell it) song while she is peeing, so she opens the stall door and tells Mark to come and sing it w/ her, so while she is peeing they are singing the song, lol, Mark says something along the lines of Paul Garcia would die to be in here, and I had to burst his bubble and tell him Paul had already been in there, because he followed me in there. He was trying to make out w/ me and I had to get loud before he would he leave. So we go back up to the room and keep on dancing, I ran into Nolan a few times, he was telling me that he wanted me to be his woman, I don't know if I believe that. So he asked Jamie if he could dance w/ me and then he dropped me!! lol and then tried blaming it on me!! Mark kept kissing me (innocent close mouthed kisses), which was fine by me. lol. He might be gay but he is damn hot! I had so much fun!! I danced all night it seemed, and when I wasn't dancing I was laughing my ass off!!

I know this isn't really a very good description of last night, but I don't have much time before I have to go to work and I just wanted to jot down the important details. lol Mark in the women's bathroom was hilarious! There are 2 pictures below and more to come. For some reason my yahoo photo's isn't working right now so I can't link to it.

Last night Jamie asked me to get tested for STD's. I know he is just covering his own ass, and it was cool that he asked, but I felt kinda slutty. I don't blame him at all. He definitely should ask me to. He was sweet though, he said he would go w/ me and get tested too. Aww. Obviously he didn't hear about the time I went w/ Kenny. LOL. Oh damn that still cracks my ass up!!

I am thinking that I will name the cat Willis. I was talking to him this morning and I asked "what you talkin bout Willis?" and he said "meow" it was so cute. So it's a tie between Greg and Willis right now. lol.

I am definitely in the anger phase of getting over Keith. It is different than when I was angry at Kyle. W/ Kyle I wanted to punch him in the face....repeatedly. W/ Keith, I am not that angry, and I am usually pretty calm when I think about him, I just calmly think that I hate him. lol. That's bad. Right now I just feel like I never knew him, that he was exaggerating how bad he had it, I mean now he has time to be bored and all that, and it makes me mad that if that's the case, he felt that he had to be dishonest w/ me, I just feel that I have no idea who he is. And it makes me mad because I still think about him and being w/ him.

Damn I need to take a nap before work. I have to work at one of our sister hotels tonight.

Margo's friend, Margo, and Mark (he is so cute!!) 

Me and Katisha gettin jiggy w/ it 

Talk about a good day off!! I got up and cleaned a little bit, got my cat, went to pick up a few things at Walgreens, then came home to a Quantum Leap marathon!!! Scott Bakula is my first love! and Al cracks my shit up. Not to mention the party tonight after class. The only bad thing is I don't have anything to wear :-( Oh well. I am sure I can find something. It just might take a little creativity.

I am planning on going home January 11th- 16th. That shouldn't be too bad. I hope. I should have enough time to visit both my grandparents, and everyone else, and hopefully not enough time to get so bored. I can't believe it's been a yr already. A yr since me and Kyle broke up, a yr since I started dating, almost a yr since me and Keith met, a yr since I started this blog, since I went home for a long period of time. So much has happened it's unbelievable, and there's so much more to come. lol. I think it's time for a nap.

He's extremely sweet and lovable and just wants to curl up next to me and sleep all day. He's not fixed or declawed, that sucks!

Ok, now I need a name!!!  

Here he is 

Wanna play w/ my kitty?!!

It seems I am getting some shit for the kind of dog I want, lol. If I could I would really REALLY want a great dane or a boxer or a lab, however ya'll have not seen my apartment (ok Jamie has, but he just likes giving me shit.) It's a tiny box, I mean, tiny. It would be cruel and unusual to put a dog like that in here. I am getting a cat. I don't know if I will keep it, but it's comin. I really had my heart set on a dog this time, oh well. I don't even know if I really want a pet. Damn I forgot to ask if it was declawed! That is a pretty important question. I will take a pic of it and put it up after it gets here. At least I won't have to walk it.

Well it seems that I am getting a cat. I really want that puppy, however, it's 500 bucks and I have to be on a wait list. I am sure someone is going to want my little cuddle bunny. :-( lol. So I am gonna take the cat for now, I might find a home for it in a little while and then if I still want a dog I can save up for it. Cuz it's 500 for the dog (from this site, other ones are 2 grand!!!) and about 200 for shipping (sending the puppy in a crate on an airplane)

I just realized, well it just sank in, that I finished my paper and I turned it in *SIGH.* I can't believe I finally passed English 102. Third time really is a charm. (Now so ya'll know, I did not not pass it the other 2 times because I couldn't get it, I didn't pass because it was so damn boring I dropped the class) Next semester I think I am going to take, biology and sociology. Maybe. I have to see about that. I am also going to take that salsa class. So I am going to be in school more than I am now, and working full time, and taking salsa. But then during the summer I will cut back a little and then go full time in the fall and work full time. So that will be a nice paycheck (I get paid to go full time) but stressfull.

I think I want to be a concierge some day. Maybe, maybe not. They just get a ton of crap and they know everything and everybody. How cool would that be?!

I discovered something about Jamie last night....and something else today. As I mentioned before he's not very experienced, however, he does an excellent job playing w/ the ladies. That is one of my major turn ons and he's quite gifted. I do believe he is a natural. I also discovered just how selfless he is this morning. It's hard to explain w/o going into detail, but lets just say we only had time for one of us to get off this morning and well :-D!!!! I am extatic that I am so easy to get off. He didn't care that he didn't have time, he just wanted me to start my day off right :-D That was nice of him. We still haven't had sex and I really don't think either one of us is in a rush.

Look at this puppy, scroll down to the bottom of the page and look at the boy w/ the brown and black and white face. He's mine I licked him. lol. jK but LOOK!!!

I want a dog...I know I shouldn't get one, but there was a peekapoo here and he was the cutest, most relaxed dog I have ever seen. So now I am looking for dogs. I can't have a dog in my building but I am still looking. I am done w/ my lease in April. I might stay but then again I might try and move some place closer to downtown. Or at least closer to the "L" or grocery stores. The downside to these dogs is that they are all like 2 grand. WTF is that all about? I am sure I could find some cheaper but still. I wish I could find a mutt that was tiny. I could take it w/ me on the amtrak and it would be so cute. I am turning into a girly girl. That's sad, but oh well. Don't tell anyone but I kinda like it. lol.
This one is kinda cute, but it’s at the bottom of the list

This is the one that was at the hotel isn’t it cute

http://www.dogbreedinfo.com/pekepoo.htm


Look at this basket! I would so get it



I really want this one cuz it looks like Binji, but it digs and it’s not soft and cuddly, it’s fur is coarse

I have always wanted a silky terrier (w/ it’s hair cut short cuz it looks so cute in sweaters w/ short hair. I know I am a dork)

Since I am not allowed to post at work I thought I would go incognito and write myself an email.

I am trying to be really good at work and not get into trouble since I get in trouble everyday. Including yesterday. Well that lasted until this morning when I slept in. I got in trouble yesterday because the day before the GM saw me w/ me leaning on the desk so I got written up for inappropiate behavior. My sense of values is being seriously strained because I get written up for something that was fixed as soon as Ron said "Don't look so glum" and I see so many other people doing stuff way worse than that and I am sitting here thinking I could rat out so many people for stuff like stealing time and being in late everyday. But I don't. I get told on and written up and it's just silly. I know that it's who gets caught and all that and I know leaning on the desk isn't appropriate behavior, however, it's not something that is worth getting written up for. And Ginny asked me a week ago when I wanted to work on xmas and xmas eve. I said morning. Well she was asking me if I wanted 3 days off that week and I said no, and looked at the schedule and saw that I had a pm shift and Margo got the morning. I mentioned that I had asked for that (I already told Marisa that I worked the morning shift) I don't remember if I mentioned it last night, but Ginny is going to the Burnham on Dec. 23 and Sherry is going to accounting on Jan. 1st and Katisha is leaving around then too. Dan said we will have 7 positions to fill. I guess the other 4 are from being understaffed now, or I am getting fired. lol. Which isn't too far off I am sure. Although it's kinda nice that I don't have to worry about pissing Sherry off anymore except she is in accounting now and could fuck up my check. lol.

Last night Jamie and I went to see A Christmas Carol. It was really cool and now I want to go and see more plays. I comped the guy's breakfast this morning. Cuz I am sweet like that.

Jamie stayed up Thursday night until 1:30 helping me w/ my paper. He is so sweet. I like the way he "deals" w/ me. lol. Sometimes I can be a bit whiny and a procrastinator and just onery and he's so patient and sweet. It's nice. I was like "aww he is so sweet and I am being a butthead." He read my paper like 3 times, I don't even want to read it 3 times. I am glad he doesn't read my journal. lol He would have a fit at all the stuff I do wrong.

I talked to Keith on the IM the other day. He was saying how he hopes that I remember the fun times that we had and all that and he was asking me if I was happy w/ Jamie and all that. He seemed happier than he has lately. Don't know what that was about but I am glad he's not in such a shitty mood any more.

Seriously I think Jamie has to be the most adorable person I have ever seen. lol.The impression of him around the front desk is that "He's a keeper." lol it's so funny.Kelauna was like "how old is he?" 28 "Does he have a job" yes "Does he live on his own?" yes (roommates don't count as long as he doesn't live w/ his parents, right Kenny) "Married" No "Kids?" No. "He's a keeper" lol Then the next day Katisha said the same day and then today Margo said it too. It's funny cuz no one was around when any of them said it so it was a funny coincidence. Margo was like" he is soooo cute" I know. He's adorable.

Alright work is almost over and I am gonna go home and clean and do some laundry and get some groceries.

Well the plan was to come home, clean a bit, post and then go to bed early, however, my drawer was off and it took me forever to fix it, and then I realized it was 7 and that Jamie was just getting off. I called Jamie and waited around for him at the front desk. This guy comes up and offers 3 free tickets to A Christmas Carol at the Goodman Theater. So we went. It was freakin awesome!! The effects were amazing. Too tired to update anymore tonight, possibly tomorrow. Thank God for overtime. That's already 2 hours plus Sunday. Damn I am gonna be rollin.

I swear I am coming back!!! Hopefully I can actually post tomorrow but possibly not until Saturday or at the latest Monday :-0 Hopefully I am still alive by then. lol.

Since I was feeling lonely I made a midnight trip down to Ross and Jamie's. Hung out w/ Jamie for a bit before I passed out. He's always so sweet. I got up and fixed all the corrections I needed to make on my paper. All I have left to do is add the intro, revise it one more time, let Jamie read it (scared! He says he's really hard on that sort of thing) and then meet up w/ Jenn sometime on Thursday after work so we can proof-read each other's one last time and then correct it again. I think I am gonna have Jamie tag along to that if he wants to cuz I am bad at proof-reading someone else's work. I am afraid I will tell them wrong and then they will get a worse grade if they listen to me. lol. Alright I need to go and jump in the shower so I can head to the bank, get some money and food and then head to work. Blah. Did I mention I have to be back at work at 9 tomorrow morning. Oh yeah someone's gonna be cranky.

another reason i am crabby, i waved to the little man in the boat 4-5 times and i am still gonna have to do it a few more times before bed. Damn I need to get laid

I was in a pretty crabby mood, but Marisa called and made my day!! I was crabby cuz Jamie didn't want to hang out last night, and then I was instant messaging w/ Keith and he said he still wants to move to Arizona cuz his kids are the only thing that he has here and that pissed me off because like always I am left out. But what else did I expect. Also pissed cuz I work 3-1130 and then 9-630 on Thursday. Plus I was feeling very lonely all day which is usually how my day off goes. I thought I might get to see Jamie tonight but that didn't happen. It's not a big deal it just sucks cuz I was already feeling lonely and was hoping we could just hang out and do something fun. But Marisa called me and I am instant messaging w/ Jamie, kind of. lol. He's kinda busy. I am just in a crabby mood. Oh well. I will get over it. And the crest premium white strips made my teeth really sensitive but they work. And I have barely been eating the last few days. Paper is due on Friday at 5pm

HAPPY BIRTHDAY

After listening to the words of this song last night and only getting about a third of the way through before I wanted to cry (sometimes I cry for silly reasons) I didn't want to put it on here. However, I got through it today and some of the words really describe how I feel (hence the crying..ok I cried a little) and since it's Greg's birthday I had to put it up even if I hated it.

This morning I had a dream that I showed up to work (an office job, but I worked w/ all the same people) but I wore pin-stripe pants, and a big baggy orange sweatshirt and tennis shoes, I worked on the upper floor of this mall and it looked down over this payless shoe store that was going out of business. I ran down there before Dan could see me, and I was terrified that I would run into someone who would get me in trouble and then I would get fired. I tried to hurry but every time I grabbed a shoe it was too big, or they didn't match. Most were black, but this one guy started to help me so I asked him to just find me anything that matched and fit. Well he came back w/ these chunky knee high pink leather boots. I took them but when I went to put them on one was plain and the other was snake skin. It was a bad dream lol. My arms hurt so bad today from carrying that crap.

Last night I was feeling pretty bad about my body so I asked Kenny if I looked anorexic. I don't think I do, because first of all my body image is fucked up from when I was overweight, and now it's worse because I feel like I went from one shitty body to another, and that my body didn't live up to it's end of the bargain. (does it ever) but then I get comments from people that I shouldn't lose anymore weight, or that I am so skinny, or even that I look anorexic (it was from Gram's and my brother so they could just be worried that I am not eating) and then every time I eat at work someone has to make a comment. Usually I don't care but last night I just started feeling bummed out. So Kenny told me no, that I had a tummy so I didn't look anorexic. I said I know that's why I am confused because I see something in the mirror, but other people are telling me different and I really don't have a recent body image for reference because I have only had my picture taken a few times since I lost weight so my mind has yet to replace the fat image that is in my head. So after I tell him how confuse I am that I am getting conflicting info, he says "well Kurt said you looked saggy in that swimsuit in vegas, but I think you look perfect." Thanks Kenny, no help at all. lol. On a day to day basis I am not self-conscious about my body, because I know it looks better than it did, and because I am still in the process of fixing all the crap that I put my body through, however sometimes it really bums me out that I have already come so far and I am still not happy w/ what I see. I still don't have the body of a 22 yr old. and I am scared that I will work so hard at exercising and eating right and it won't work so I am not working at it as hard as I should be.

I got those crest premium whitening strips last night. I figure if these don't work I am just going to find a dentist and have him whiten my teeth for me. Damn I should have taken a before and after. lol. Well actually I have a few. Alright so anyway. Point of the post I am feeling kinda bummed about my body, but it's ok, I still look damn sexy. lol

A little more about work

Ok I took a nap and I am awake enough to be pretty pissed off about all this crap w/ Sherry. I just don't get it. I mean let's compare.....374 departures, me, Katisha, and Margo (the 3 newest people) and Achim. No big deal for Margo to come in late for family. 84 arrivals w/ Toufik, Achim, John, Katisha, Sean, and Sherry. I get shit for wanting to go a few hours early so I don't fail my class. That is wrong on so many freakin levels. Not to mention Margo has changed her whole schedule arround this week already and she already gets better shifts than I do even though I was there first, all the shifts that I talked to Sherry about getting a week before Margo got there Margo got. I am not mad at Margo and I really didn't care about the shift stuff at all but now it just seems like a bunch of crap. I am glad that Margo is able to get off and change stuff w/o a problem, I just wish it was the same for me. Sherry brought up last night that I forgot to call her one day when she needed someone to work and I said I would. First of all I told her maybe but probably not. She should not have relied on a probably not. And I brought it up to her the next time I worked and apologized. She was like I will never forget that. Ok well I will never forget how pissy she was over nothing and this crap today. I will also not forget about how she tried making it all out to be me. Ok subject change because I am getting a bit heated and it's not really worth it to get mad when I can't do shit about it.

This morning, as soon as I get in, Sharonjoy says,"this woman wants to talk to you" in her adorable jamacan accent and she points to the call on hold. I answer the phone and this woman is complaining about the elevator next door and she says she called several times and no one did anything and she hadn't slept. Well the first guest that I deal w/ is either gonna get it really good or I am gonna screw up. It was her lucky day (I did both). She asked to talk to the manager, and since Sharonjoy knew who it was I figured she just didn't want to talk to her, so I said " I can help you" Well I ended up comping her whole room and letting her keep that room so she didn't have to move her stuff and just giving her another room to use to sleep in. lol. My brain is fuzzy when I first get there so I am not too quick on the uptake and I just do the first thing that comes to mind and I don't think things through.lol. No matter what time it is. But considering that Sharonjoy knew there was a history w/ this woman calling and she didn't prepare me for what I was getting into I cannot be completely blamed. lol. Then there was this wedding party and someone dumped a cooler of ice in the elevator and they were smoking on a nonsmoking floor (like 15 people in one room that connected w/ another room) so it was bothering the guests in the connecting room, even though they could have used the smoking lounge, and it was the bride and grooms room so why weren't they getting busy on their wedding night...but anyway, they told Sharonjoy "you need to get it together bitch" and then the groom came up to me today and when I asked him about his stay he mentioned the ice and said "the bitch working down here was pretty rude" lol can you believe how stupid people are? It cracks me up when people say Sharonjoy is rude. She is the happiest, most upbeat, person ever. I have never seen her be rude. I am sure she can be, but I am also sure it's for a good reason. Anyway I am bored and hungry.

I swear Greg your song is coming.

I had a pretty good day at work today, except for the fact that Sherry decided it was ok for Margo to come in 2 hours late even though we had 374 check outs and it was only me and Katisha and Achim. Achim is never at the front desk. So it was me and Katisha. There were an additional 71 express checkouts done over the voice message system and a few more done over the phone. I couldn't believe that crap. She said it was because she thought it was gonna be a regular Sunday. She should have looked to see the departures. But whatever.

I got a dozen roses and a gift basket from work. The roses were from a guest who didn't want them. He asked if he could leave them in the room. I told him he could either leave them in the room or bring them to the front desk whatever he wanted to do w/ them and so he brought them to me. :-D and the gift basket was from a guest from yesterday. It has some food in it.

I am exhausted from staying up late again last night, although not quite as late as the night before. I was up til quarter to 11. But I had to get up at 5:30 this morning for work.

Jamie forgot to grab the movie the other morning so he has to come pick it up. I took it to work today in case he could come get it there, but he wasn't at home all day so when I called him he said he would come and get it but I don't know for sure if that is gonna be tonight or not.

I went and got a power screwdriver, but I think I should have gotten a drill. lol. TruValue was closed so as I walked past radio shack I thought to myself "Self, they might have one" I was about to leave but then thought I should ask if they knew where I could find one and they said they had one, and it was 50% off. How sweet is that, and I got 16 AA batteries, (good ones too) for 10 bucks. Total: 21 and some change. Beats the hell out of the one for 50 bucks at TruValue, but I probably wouldn't need a drill too. lol. Although if I start the holes w/ my regular screwdriver it will work fine. My arms are too weak from carring that heavy ass gift basket home from work today.

I'm gonna read and possibly pass out.

So sweet you might get sick!

So about last night..........

Jamie came over and he picked up a movie on the way. I was thinking "what the heck is he gonna bring? I hope I don't hate it" He ended up bringin Dirty Dancing! He said he was gay for liking that movie, but he likes to dance and he likes the music on the soundtrack ya know. So anyway, he also brought some sorbet, that was vitamin c enriched for me since I am sick (they didn't have rocky road!!) so we watched the movie and he let me cuddle w/ him through the whole thing and he cuddled back. Then we talked for awhile and made out for awhile (it stayed PG I swear......well maybe PG13 lol) I forgot how frustrating just making out can be, this moring I was seriously debating whether or not I should have rolled over and ask "do you mind if i just knock one off before work." lol but in the end I decided not to. It was a tough decision. So I didn't get to bed until quarter to 5 and I was up at quarter to 8!!! We rode the redline back because the redline has his stop. When we got to his stop I was like crap, "you gotta get off" he just shook his head and said "nah" and he road the train all the way to my stop and then rode it back to his!! ohmigod how sweet is that?!! and he had his arm around me the whole time. It felt so nice. It's been so long since anyone has put their arm around me. In public anyway. It was just so sweet that he wanted to keep riding so he could spend an extra 5 minutes w/ me.

I talked to Sherry today. She said that I got mad before I heard the story and that wasn't how it happened at all. But I didn't argue. I am just gonna let it go. I told her I was shocked that she acted like my feelings didn't matter. I told her how I felt, nothing else I can do. I still think it was all because she thought I was going over her head and that's her problem. I mean she didn't even know why I got mad.

There were 3 groups of bitches that came into work today and I had to deal w/ them all! BLAH. There's nothing we can do when we are sold out so it doesn't help their situation at all when they are bitches to us and act like they are better than us. Anyway, I don't know if I mentioned it, but last week the suites that I stayed in were going for 4oo dollars a night! Ok I am exhausted

Work was really good today. I will post some about it later though.

Right now I am waiting for a call from Jamie, because he is no longer going out of town this weekend and called me to see if I wanted to watch a movie w/ him. I love that he leaves me a message to listen to every day after I get home from work even though he doesn't know how much I enjoy it. It's a guilty pleasure. :-D I was tired when I talked to him so I wasn't thinking clearly and had him come to me instead of me going to him. Even though it would be much easier for me to go to him. oops.

I have been missing Kyle today too. That REALLY sucks. I have just been thinking about some of the adorable things that he used to do (ya know when he wasn't a lying ass) And today I had some chinese food and he loved chinese food. BBBLLLAAAAHHH!!! And I am still missing Keith.

OK he still hasn't called to tell me he is at the train stop, so about work.... I talked to Dan today about what went down on Monday. Apparently Sherry tried blaming it on me and saying that I just came out and told her I was leaving. Anyone that knows me knows that I would never tell my boss that I was leaving early and I wouldn't do it in a snotty way either. Katisha even heard me ask her if Dan talked to her and Dan said that he told me he was gonna talk to me. I pointed it out to him that I could have called in at midnight and that I came in to help him out. He agreed and went on about how much he appreciated it. I also told him I didn't want to be put in the position that I would feel like I had to call in at midnight to avoid something like that happening. Margo has called off since then w/ no problem and so has Janice (a pbx operator) I think Sherry just thought I was going over her head to Dan and that was what pissed her off. That wasn't the case at all. In my head her and Dan are equal. If I am talking to one I am talking to the other. But anyway I also told him about what Sherry said to me about her not thinking I should be upset and I told him I didn't appreciate that because the first thing someone wants when they are mad is to be heard, and validated. Not brushed off. Especially by someone who is supposed to be their boss and it's supposed to be a family. Katisha said that after I left Sherry said "She was pissed" I was. Alot of people think I am just a push over (ok when it comes to relationships I am) because I let alot of shit slide off my back because I do not think it's worth it to get pissed and throw a fit over something that doesnt matter. I am a flexible person. I like compromise, if I can be happy and make someone else happy at the same time why not. But of course people test that and they try to take advantage of it. And when that boundry has finally been crossed they find out real quick. I did apologize to Sherry for my part in it because she is my boss and I don't want her to think that I was being disrespectful, but I want an apology from her too and when I work w/ her again I will tell her how I feel about the stuff she said to me. k he's on his way.... to be continued
But I am looking forward to Jamie getting here.

Random thoughts first thing in the morning

I called my bank and they are gonna let me use my student ID to get some money out. Sweet deal.
I miss Keith today. That sucks.

I talked to Jamie until my phone died last night. lol. I am pretty tired right now. I don't know if I mentioned it but I moved my computer so now I can sit and bed and play on the internet and watch tv at the same time. lol. I spoil me.

Sharonjoy was saying the other night that she is on an enforced hiatus from sex, I said I was too, and she just started laughing she said I was just waiting for someone to come along. lol. It's funny but so not true (well maybe just a little ;-p). I could have sex w/ a number of guys if that's the way it was. I just don't want to. But then again in an essence aren't we all just waiting. It just depends on what we are waiting for; a quick fuck, a life partner or beddy buddy, etc.. Alright I am leaving so I can get some money and food.

You might be wrong Greg. So far my hypothesis for nice guys holds true. lol. I asked :-(

Happy Memories

When my brothers and I were little we would sit in my mom's room and listen to records. Sometime we would listen to tapes but the best times were when we got out the records. What brought these long forgotten memories was the fact that Jamie and I are talking on the phone and listening to music on our computers. I brought up "I touch myself" by Blondie and then he countered w/ Clarence Carter's "Strokin" which believe it or not my mom let us listen to (she was rather open w/ the whole sex thing. lol) Then...THEN!!!! He pulls out Chuck Berry's "My Din-A-Ling!!!!!" Oh-mi-god! The fun we used to have singing that song!!! lol. I tried to remember the name of this song for soooo long!!! LOL My cheeks hurt from laughing so hard!

I was thinking of buying a screwdriver today, but in order to do that I need to run downtown to my bank to get some money. Because I was retarded and went into the first bank that I saw, literally, and it just so happens to be the only branch in the entire city and closed on the weekends and at 5 every evening it's very hard for me to get to my money. Which is a good thing. The reason I didn't go was not because it would take me forever and a day to get there and back, nor was it because that would mean 2 trips downtown in one day. It was because I couldn't find my license!!! GGRRRRR!!! I think I left it at work. So I am going to have to wait til Tuesday before I can get any money at all!! Even though I have plenty of money in there now, and payday is tomorrow. It sucks when I know I have money, but I can't get to it. Oh well, maybe I will find my licesnse before tomorrow and that way I can leave for work early and run to the bank.

I talked to Keith a little bit last night. I was really surprised he was still up. He seems to be having a pretty rough time right now.

I also found out that I should have been getting alot of incentives over the last couple of checks, however, no one told me what to do to get them so I got screwed. Not any more though that's for sure and I sold three rooms last night which definitely put us over the top for being sold out cuz we were already at 100%. Go me! We all get a bonus for every night we sell out. Well whoever was working that is.
I like it when my message light on my phone blinks. lol. I know exactly who it is because no one else calls me and even when my Gram's calls she won't leave a message. It's a good feeling. Warm and fuzzy.

I was going to clean some more today but right now I feel pretty shitty so I am going to actually lay in bed for awhile.

I had Chipotle again for the second time since I have moved up here. Luckily this time I couldn't taste it, I could only feel that it was hot. (I got the mild!) I was hoping it would clear up my sinuses but no such luck. This is the third time this yr I have had this cold!

Why doesn't Walgreens carry electric screwdrivers? TruValue only has 2 kinds, one is $30 and one is $50. Ross told me before that I should buy it and then return it when I am done, but I like having an electric screwdriver around. Ya never know when it will come in handy. On Saturday I am going to buy one so I can put up all my shelves and pictures and stuff because I am tired of having them laying around.

The plan was to lay around all day but I think I am going to clean. I can lay around all day tomorrow. In a clean apartment. That will be nice. I started to clean my bathroom alittle bit. I went to Walgreens and found this little plasitc organizer and thought it would be perfect for all my makeup. I brought it home and then proceeded to completely trash my make-up. lol. I dropped my expensive Dior blush and dumped it every where (that was upsetting) Then I dropped my concealer in the toilet. And after I had it all put away I tried to move the container and dumped an entire drawer on the floor in my bathroom. On second thought maybe I shouldn't clean today. lol

I am sick!!!!! I was up at 3:30 this morning because I couldn't sleep. I went to the diner next door and started my paper. I got a good chunk of it out of the way. I didn't even start the other one though. I took a nap around 730 and then worked on the paper some more. Then I laid around and was sick all day. I left early for class so I could get a cashier's check for Ross and change my address at my bank. I thought I wasn't going to make it (I made it w/ 5 minutes to spare) I wanted to cry!! I was so scared I was gonna be downtown 2 hours before my class started and w/ no money and no money to get home w/ and since I am sick and cranky I felt like crying. I finally ate at Wendy's before class. (I went over 12 hours w/o eating anything! You know I am sick!) Then I sat through English and it was pretty awful because we did these revision exercises and I felt miserable. Then Jen and I rode the train to clark and division and I went to see Ross and Jamie. I didn't think Jamie was going to be there but I was glad he was. Ross was passed out so me and Jamie hung out in the kitchen. Then I finally went and woke Ross up. I couldn't really stay mad at him cuz he was too adorable when he woke up. We did talk though and we are all good now. He got me some awesome orange pants from thailand that I plan on wearing tomorrow when I am in bed all morning reading the romance novels that I bought tonight and eating some haagan-dazs. lol. I hope this cold goes away fast so I can work out again. Then me and Jamie hung out some more. By the time I left I really didn't think Jamie was interested in me or anything so I was kinda bummed. I thought about emailing him asking if he was interested. I got home and there was a message on my phone from him that he left while I was at school. I called him back just to see what it was and he said he just wanted to tell me that him and Ross talked and it was all good. So I eventually got around to asking him if he was interested and he said yeah and we talked for a bit more. Actually about an hour and a half more. lol. See if I wouldn't have asked I was just going to assume he wasn't interested. I don't know what will come of it, but we both want to just take it all really slow. Which is what I wanted right from the start cuz I am still upset over Keith. He said I had balls for just coming out and asking him if he was interested. lol. I thought that was funny. I was scared at first but then it just came out and I didn't even think twice about it. but anyway I am on nyquil and am getting fuzzy and rambling.