alright kenny saved the day!!!! wow this computer is pretty fast. i am such a geek cuz i am happy that i can put all my sims stuff on here and still have plenty of room. lol. well all my good intentions went out the window. but i have done some rethinking. who the hell really cares if i have sex. just me. so if i feel like having sex why shouldnt i. well i am not going to tell you all the details. you will just have to wait until my erotic novel comes out. lol. so anyway all the interesting stuff happens when i cant get online to type about it. so i went out with allen on wed. after school. it was fun. he is so funny. i told him he could read this if he wanted to. bad idea. lol i will never hear from him again. lol. well i think i had a few drinks when i told him he could read it so i will blame it on that. lol. oh well i dont have anything to hide. this is me. just in a slightly crazier version. lol but anyway we had a blast. or at least i did. lol. i think he had fun. the bartender at monk's pub was crazy. she was all over the place and just kind of coocoo. but it was funny. i am such a light weight though. he had like three or four beers to my one sex on the beach. but then we went to dave and busters. and we played pool. he kicked my ass. lol. i think out of the 2 games we played i got in like 3 balls. that is so sad. but we had fun. like i said he's hilarious. then on thursday night i went to the concert to see John. the concert was cool. i have a cd from a band called lovedrug. it's a good cd. well I borrowed it so i will have to give it back. they opened but i wasnt there for that. they are good though. american cosmonaut was really good too. i got to go backstage and everything after the band was done. then after that bar closed me and John went to another one and chilled until it closed. i didnt get home until 430 or 5. i am still wiped out. I had fun with John but i dont know. we will see. he called me the other night and i was sleeping. and i answered the phone in my sleep. it was so weird. cuz i woke up and i was on the phone. i was like who the hell am i talking to. lol. but we are supposed to do something today. but i had a lot of fun with heman. i went to apply at a ton of stores on friday. one was victoia's secret. that would be a cool job. 10% discount. oh yeah. but the woman at dave and busters said after christmas i could get a job there. so if i dont get the one at victoria's secret then i will still have dave and busters. so that is good. i am so excited though. i want to work at victoria's secret. so anyway. my grandma's dr found a lump in her stomache so they are going to have to go in and see if it is anything and if it is then they will have to do surgery. now i am really worried though because my mom didnt come out of surgery so i am thinking that i might not get to see my grandma again. and that's very sad. i want to go home now but i dont think i will be able to. but i was thinking that someone could call me if she needs to go into surgery and then i can get down there and be there when she wakes up. i am so tired. i need to go take a nap. but i have only been up for an hour and a half. man i am tired