A New Template!.... a crazy, an old friend, and some bad news

It's just a start, but I think the template is coming along nicely. I took one of the pre-made templates and I am slowly but surely making it mine. This little bit; the picture, the link color, hover color, and visited color, plus adding a bit to the side bar has taken me an hour. I am a little slow, what can I say. I am also in the middle of making a big, juicy hamburger and some organic fries.

Grezina recieved her flowers yesterday and Ms. P. read her card w/o her knowing. Lori put on the card "We miss you and wish you were here with us. Love ya girl, Lori and Elisha" Ms. P. told R. (the conceirge in our building) that she didn't like the fact that we put "wish you were here with us" on the card. As if it's any of the bitch's business. We were just saying that we miss her. I think she was pissed because she only bought Grezina a croissant for secretary's day.

I got an email from Katisha today!!!! She is coming back soon and applying at my job. I warned her about it but we will see. I put in a good word for her. I really want to spend time w/ her when she comes up.

mmmmm organic fries are yummy, especially when combined w/ (anything but organic) sweet baby rays. mmmmmmmmmmmmm

On a sad note Jamie is in extremely deep shit right now. Like quicksand deep and he doesn't even know it yet. A few weeks ago he told me he was deleting all his porn off his computer. Now, I need to add that in no way shape or form did I ask him or imply that I wanted him to do that. I even told him, before we moved in together when we were setting up the rules and he said when the door's closed knock, that I thought that was a good idea because I didn't need to walk in on him spanking it and vice versa (although, it's usually a good thing when the guy catches the girl, the man in the boat always loves a party.) He has also made a few statements since then about having removed it from his computer. Yesterday or the day before I mentioned I wanted to go on his computer, when he wasn't home since he is working nights, to look at the pictures he took and he had a huge shit fit. He refused to let me go on there saying that he was really private about that stuff and implied that I would be snooping. I got offended by that and told him if I wanted to snoop I could go in there any damn time I wanted when he wasn't home and snoop to my hearts content. Then today we went out to lunch and I mentioned emailing them to myself from his computer and he didn't seem to have any objections so when I got home from work I went in there. I was pretty excited because I could start working on my template, so I sat down and began to upload them all into my email. I finished up and started to close out my pages and I got down to his soulseek page that he had running when he went to work. I didn't really think anything of it because he is always downloading music so I went to minimize it and the word "porn" caught my eye. I did a double take because I didn't believe what I saw at first. However, there were quite a few titles there. Most of them involved Jenna Jameson, who I admit is hot. It's not the porn that I have a problem with. I know guys like to look at naked women. I like to look at naked women. Lori and I had this discussion yesterday about if a woman says she has never been turned on by the sight of another woman she is lying. Hello, do I have to mention Angelina Jolie? There isn't a person on earth I would love to have sex w/ more than Angelina Jolie. Unless of course I could make the man up out of thin air, but since that isn't possible yet I am sticking w/ Jolie. Anyway, I digress. I do have a few problems w/ this though:

1. He made such a big deal about deleting it all.
2. The shit that Kyle put me through w/ the porn and the lying, and the fact that Jamie knows all about it and how much it hurt me.
3. He had naked pictures of me on his computer, yet he decided to download porn. Talk about a blow to my ego.

True, I don't look like Jenna Jameson. BUT I am his girlfriend, his flesh and blood girlfriend who is willing to fuck his brains out if only he was able to. I think I am in shock about it all, because I am not that mad. I am really hurt though. I am going to email him before I go to bed. I know he is going to be pissed that I went in there. I didn't think anything of it until afterwards though. I really thought that he knew I was talking about doing it tonight when I got home from work. The situation kind of sucks. I found it by accident. Although I did tell him about my sixth sense for finding out that stuff. He was forwarned. I guess he didn't believe me. I can't help it, it just falls into my lap. I knew something was up yesterday, but I let it go because I trusted him. After we stopped talking about it I didn't even think any more of it. I think that's the part that really sucks and that has me upset. It didn't even cross my mind that he was lying about the porn. Anyone else and I would have jumped on it immediately.