i made 12 goals today to support me in my quest to become a leader in 90 days

1. read 1/2 an hour a day from a book that will benefit my career or personal developement
2. make a to-do list for the next day before i stop working for the day
3. take vitamins
4. exercise
5. read magazines or a book not related to my career or personal developement for an hour after work to unwind.
6. do my assignments from the art instruction schools
7. write down my daily expenses
8. meditate
9. clean for 30 minutes
10. email one family or friend a day
11. compliment someone everyday
12. talk to someone new at the gym everyday
    

now i have to do these things everyday for 90 days to make them habits. that's my main goal. oh and the book i am reading is called soft sell by tim connors. it's got some really good stuff in it. and it's not necessarily just for people in sales i think it would help out alot of people just in day to day life. it talks about how to change your subconscious tape, how to make goals, and how to manage time plus tons of other stuff.

i dont think that anybody expects me to do good at this. except my coach and myself. but as bill clinton says in his book, you only need 1 person. i am not saying they dont want me to do good. but they just dont think i will. and i know why. but i guess it would be nice if they could pretend. but really i dont want anyone to lie or pretend i just have to show them and then they will actually believe it. i am not going to quit this. even if i only make an extra 500 bucks a month that's more than what i am making now. and i love these products. and i love being on Lori's team. and i make my own hours and can do it anywhere. and the only thing that is going to stop me from doing good is myself. i know what your thinking. i do not have a good reputation for setting myself up for success and sticking to stuff. but you are not taking into account the following: i lost 50 freaking lbs, i moved to chicago all by myself to make my life better and i didnt go home when it got rocky here and there, i have stuck to going to a therapist for 4 yrs to make myself better. i write in this thing every day when i have never been able to keep a journal before, i finished working on keith's pic when i have never finished anything if it wasnt for a class or to go to the college fair. well i did one for harry too. so i can make myself work and do things. i just need to work on doing it in a more timely manner. i can do things and be motivated when it is something i want bad enough. and i want to do good at this bad enough. because i need to prove to myself that i can. this is going to be hard. i am going to want to quit, i am going to not want to work, i am going to want to not give it 110% i am going to want to nap. i am not going to want to make calls. but if i keep doing everything like i am i will never get anywhere and i know i have it in me to be successful. maybe not at this but success is different for everyone. i am defining my success as proving to myself that i can do this no matter what it takes not if i get rich from this. and if i cant make what i want then after i have gone through school and figured out what i want i will move on to that. and be successful at that. on my own terms! and when i feel like i cant do this any more i will call lori and if that doesnt help i will call marisa and if that doesnt help i will call keith and he will put his foot in my ass. and if i cant reach any of these people i will find it in myself to keep working. and to work through it because who knows in 30 minutes maybe i wont feel that way any more. maybe something will come together maybe something will click. you only fail when you stop trying. I WILL DO IT