guess who called me today. that bastard that fired me. ha! i bet everyone else quit. i didnt answer i let him leave a message but of course he didnt tell me what the hell he wanted.

i am getting pissed cuz i am at a roadblock w/ my business right now and i want to get as much done as possible while i am motivated so when the motivation starts to slip hopefully i will be very close to making some good money so that will keep me going. all i really need to do is get some advertising going and get my business cards printed up and get some customers and then i can start making money and then i can started putting some money into recruiting. i need to make a game plan for the next month cuz the next month is going to be the toughest. i have all these different things that i want to do and i wrote them all down but i still want to just get out and do them and stop sitting here thinking about it. i need to make some serious cash and when i do good at this i will be able to reach alot of my goals. and i am so frustrated that i am stuck here and it is out of my control. GGGRRRRRRRR!!!!! ya know seriously i think a huge chunk of my lack of motivation was due to lack of energy cuz now that i have energy i want to just run around and get stuff done. so i need to make tomorrows to do list. that will make me feel better. to have a game plan for tomorrow and get it done. so i have proof that i am moving forward and working towards my goal. i dont even want to sleep i just want to work until i am there. and then i will relax and enjoy it and do stuff i really want to do, for me. like buy another house, and decorate it exactly like i want. and get an awesome car and go on trips and have lots of sex.