in other news

oh kenny is trying to talk to me again. i was thinking a few days ago that i feel bad that i said i wouldnt go to vegas again w/ him again but marisa said that stuff about him saying i didnt get drunk and forgot to mention she had said she hoped i would at least once. and that is the only reason he said that. i know that because he forwarded an email of hers and that little bunch of emails was in w/ it. but anyway. so i felt bad cuz that changes some stuff. but not much.

i have a feeling that i am going to get very very cranky as the week goes on and there is a possibility of spontaniously bursting into tears. i did not get as much sex as i wanted/needed this weekend and i am feeling a bit deprived. i mean last week i was going crazy and then having to spend a weekend w/ sex just out of my reach....that does not make for a happy camper well at least when no sex is forthcoming at the end of the weekend when it is supposed to be there i mean i am getting pretty good at waiting stuff out as long as in the end i know it's going to be there but when it aint there i get a tad bit bitter. it was basically the male version of the cocktease. and we know how guys feel about a cocktease. so i feel pretty shitty on more than one level. seriously i think i am depressed over it. lol. no really i do. i wasnt kidding about the tears. i think i just might be an addict. hello my name is elisha and i have a problem. ya know he says he just doesnt need it as much as i do, ok fine i can understand that (i have been there) but he's a guy why doesnt he just want it for the sake of having it. i mean you would think guys would take it when they could get it cuz who knows when they will get it again. but then again i guess that's the damn problem he knows he can get it when ever he wants. damn here comes the angry phase. lol. i am a bitter bitter young woman right now. i have alot to do today but i am not feeling motivated but that is not going to stop me. i just have to get on it. and i am almost done w/ all my action steps and then i will move onto the next steps and that is pretty motivating in and of itself. apparently my voicemail has been working for some people even though i have not had it activated. i did not activate it until last friday. and i have missed some important messages that i should have gotten damn. now i feel bad cuz i never called these people back. but anyway i gotta get to work