i am so smart. everyone says ooohhh you're not motivated you need motivation, and i say i have motivation, i just have to find something i want to use it on. movitation is not external it's internal. no one freakin believes me but here it is in black in white in this book. just cuz i am motivated by different things doesnt mean i am not motivated. just because i am not motivated by the need to survive (pay rent) doesnt mean i cant be motivated or that i dont have motivation.it means my motivation is different. my motivation is for something i will enjoy doing. see it's just different. not better or worse just different.