ya know i am really looking forward to going home right now. at least there i can be quiet and not be afraid that it is going to be taken as me being in a pissy mood or upset. sometimes i am just quiet especially if i am tired. and right now i am tired. he calls and says he isnt going to be home for lunch (an hour after his lunch break) and then he talks about everything going wrong so far today and then asks what's wrong with me. since i wasnt talking i guess. and he asked if i was still crabby at him. and i was like not really so he said well what's the really. i said nothing. he said well am i going to have to worry about this all day too. i told him i wasnt crabby. so we go back and forth a bit and then he said is this going to be another day like the weekend and i said well it wasnt. and he was like well i am going to hang up now so i go fine and i hang up. seriously this is fucking stupid! i really dont care if he wants me to go home now. i mean cuz i am having so much fun here. this isnt working and today he asked if i was thinking of getting rid of him yet well does that mean he is thinking of getting rid of me? before he said that when he asked me something he must be thinking about it himself. how the hell can 2 people go from being such good friends and having so much fun together to not even being able to talk to each other on the phone for 5 minutes. i feel like i say shit and he just doesnt care and doesnt want to listen if it is different from what he has in his head. this is so frustrating. i think he cant stand it when i am up here too long. i think he starts feeling like i am wanting to move up here when i dont at all. he needs to just take my ass home because i am sick of him expecting something to be wrong and then when there isnt anything wrong to bitch at me because i am not telling him whats wrong. it doesnt make sense. he wants shit to be wrong so he can say it's time for me to go home. but when i said something about just coming up on the weekends he acted like he didnt want that. i dont even know who the hell i am dealing with at this point because it is just so crazy. it's like me vs. him and that is so pointless. over nothing. i am so sick of this i wish i had a car because i would go home right now. i mean he isnt going to apologize or take responsiblity for this it's all me. it's because i am moody and wont tell him what's wrong. and it's because i made his weekend miserable. and guys say girls get bitchy and moody and change all of a sudden. he asked if this is how i really am one day. and it's like now is this how he really is? all i wanted to do was have fun with him and be with him and share things and all that crap and here it is and i am the bad guy and i am the evil woman. he just called and i told him that i am still a little bummed about this weekend and all that and he's like well see if you would have said that earlier then i wouldnt think that it was something new. i told him it wasnt. i think he just expected me to be mad about him not coming home for lunch and not calling sooner and when i wasnt he just couldnt believe that. i mean i wasnt like i am still pissed cuz this weekend and blaming him. i meant i am just stressed and tired and bummed out that we fought this whole weekend. hence the reason i said i am just tired. and he said something that oh he has to be a mind reader now. and it's like no but i am not going to add to the shitty day that he is already having when i am sure he is still bummed about the weekend too. and now we are arguing again for no reason whatsoever. when we should be on eachother's side all we are doing is attacking each other. i am not blaming him for the weekend i am not still pissed at him from the weekend i am just bummed that we fought all weekend. and the worst part is i know when i do go home i am going to miss him. and want to be back up here and then after i have been up here for awhile we are going to fight all over again.