i could have sworn that i typed something one of the last few days that i wanted to correct today but now i cant find it. but i was reading this book yesterday (women who think too much) about overthinking and about how if something bad is going on in your life then your negative thinking snowballs until it is hard for you to find the good you just concentrate on the bad. and i thought i typed in something about keith that wasnt truebut at the time since i was overthinking i thought it was. but now i cant find it. but ya know i have been doing that stuff since i was little i remember in third grade laying awake at night doing that stuff. and last night i was up worrying if i did write that and if keith saw it and was hurt by it and then whether or not i should just take it out or explain it and then if i explained it how i would explain it and i just felt so awful thinking that if he did see it how bad he would feel and how i thought at the time it was true but now that i have thought about it and my mood isnt so depressed any more i realize that it isnt true at all. (in case you were wondering why i would need a book on overthinking). so any way, these caffine pills are making me nauseaus today. i have to get moving cuz i have to pick up food and stuff for opening day at the brewers game and i have to take a shower and get ready all before 12. seriously though i think we went so long without having sex that i almost forgot just how good it is. i think i am just about the luckiest girl in the world. i cant believe how stressed i was last night and i cant even find it this morning. i wasnt going to take it out cuz it was the perfect example of me over thinking but now i think if i find it i will. i cant wait til sunday. the sad part is keith wont be there, but i will live. i have to see marisa. i hope i have fun at the game today. i am a little nervous cuz we are going with matt and his girlfriend and a guy that works with keith and matt and the guys wife. i dont even know if i really want to drink but i figure after a couple of drinks i am not going to care any more. lol. i am just so picky about alcohol. i mean i hate the taste of alcohol and the drinks i do like are so sweet they hurt my teeth after awhile and i dont know it's just an ass pain.