that last blog is kinda hard to read but it is a conversation between me and kenny and then keith and kenny and then back to me and kenny for a sec. but anyway i never said that i still wanted to sleep with kenny. and he was just complaining how he couldnt believe that i didnt want to have sex with him. i wrote him a pretty bitchy email earlier. maybe i will put it on here. i dont know. he is just an ass. keith was pissed. but ya know what. i am kinda relieved that i dont want to be friends with kenny any more. ya know. less stressful. i wanted to be able to stay friends with him so bad. but ya know what it is easier this way. keith isnt going to get jealous. i dont have to worry kenny is going to find out about keith and get his feelings hurt. i dont have to put up with kenny's shit. i mean why would i say i wanted to sleep with kenny when i am having amazing sex with keith? you tell me cuz i dont know. i mean yeah i enjoyed sex with kenny it was ok. at the beginning and stuff but then he just started acting like it was a chore. he never respected me. if i said it hurt he would whine and then ask me if i wanted to have sex again. (like 2 seconds after we quit) and he would do the jack rabbit sex too. (if ya saw charlottes second wedding on sex and the city ya know what i am talking about) he said his ex loved it that way. and it's like well i dont and i said i dont so knock it off. ya know with my ex and with kenny and everyone else that i slept with i would be satisfied when i was done. and then not need it again for a long period of time. well at least a week. but with keith, i am even more satisfied yet i cant wait to do it again. it's like the ultimate tease. and i love being teased. i could have sex with him morning noon and night. really any time he wants to have sex i am up for it. he is just so sexy. i dont know what it is about him but i think he is irrestible. actually i think i do know what it is. i have always wanted to be with someone who is a man's man. very manly. and yet still loving and with a big heart. and that is what he is. and it is fucking hot. i mean dont get me wrong i love guys in suits they are sexy and nice to look at but keith in his uniform or in jeans, a sweatshirt and a little scruffy i am just like go chop me some fire wood. lol. sorry i know that wont make sense to you exactly but i have always wanted a rugged type of guy. someone who can go out and chop some firewood or other manual labor and be all manly and sexy. and when he is on his bike. that's hot. damn. yeah i would definitly pick a rugged guy over a guy in a suit any day. cuz you can put a rugged guy in a suit once in awhile but it's a hell of alot harder to get a guy in a suit to get his hands dirty. alright well i need to change the subject. lol. damn it's at least 4 hours til he comes home. if he even comes home for lunch. oh yeah what's with guys thinking it's embarassing if once in awhile they get off before the chic. ok i can see how if it happened every single time or a few times a month or what ever. but i mean but seriously it has to happen once in awhile. plus i make sure i get mine. if ya know what i mean. it's like i am not going to put it all on him to make sure i get off. and usually i am very good at making sure i do. i mean it is not hard. and if i dont (which is pretty rare) it's because i am distracted. usually by a sharp object poking me somewhere (and no not the good kind) i mean like the corner of a cabinet or my head hitting the wall or occasionally just stress (although that can be taken care of with a little extra foreplay...bills what bills?) but seriously. it is less effort on my part to make sure i am all good than to fake or go through all the stuff afterwards if i dont. i mean i am not saying dont help out but if i dont get off there's always next time. and like i said earlier i like to be teased. although i would feel bad if the guy didnt get off. but guys are alot easier to please than women. by far. ok just wanted to get that off my chest. the only time that the guy cumming first stops me from having one is if he has to pull out. and then it's his fault cuz he didnt want to wear a condom. that's just rude. alright well i am done for now i guess. this is pretty long