alright well i am not seeing aaron anymore. told him yesterday. now i feel bad. but he was really clingy. and i knew he would want me to stop seeing everyone else and i didnt want to be in a serious relationship. but i do feel bad. i liked him. he's a really good person. well allen is probably out too. he wants to have a threesome. seriously. on thursday. so that sucks. i thought about it. the other girl is really nice. but i dont know. wow i just remembered a crazy dream i had about kevin and this other girl from my drafting class. weird. so anyway i am down to kenny and John. which is just fine with me. well i am still going to hang out with amit. and maybe sam. but i dont know just as friends. marisa thinks that me and kenny will be together through default. but i dont want to go out with someone just through default and i wouldnt want anyone to be with me just through that either. it's not worth it. life is too short. i would do better on my own. but i really like kenny as a friend. well him and marisa are my best friends so it's more than just a friend but he deserves someone who wants to be with him forever. i dont know. and John, well he is cute and we obviously talk for hours. and we have a lot in common. although i am still worried about something. but that is what dating is all about. and then when i get back from christmas i will have a job and wont have time for dating. oh and keith. a new guy i am talking to on the internet. we have a business design that we are working on. but shh it is top secret. but i like john alot. we could be really good friends too and maybe something more. oh and i took my profile down off of the personals. so i am done with that. hopefully when i start working i will meet new friends. that would be great.cuz that's what i need. although i like going out with kenny and spending time with him i just cannot have a boyfriend right now. i wanted one with michael but i dont know. i just want to be able to say yes if a cute guy ever asks me out. but i dont know what i am going to do about john. but that is down the road yet. i dont even know how serious he is. well i have to get ready for school.