home sweet home

well keith went home with me over the weekend. it was pretty fun. i loved having him there. i was a little worried that he would like cheryl more but he didnt. well he didnt seem to anyway. we had a blast on friday though. we went out to a bar and three of kyles friends were there well me and cheryl played musical chairs where the girls had to give lap dance to the guys well i sat in one of the chairs. so all the girls had to give me lap dances and cheryl and i had to kiss to get in on the game. and then 2 girls had to make out with me to stay in. it was pretty wild and a guy asked keith if he was with me and keith was like yeah and the guy was like cool. and then cheryl and i were taking body shots off of each other. it was pretty wild. after wards jimmy the bar owner was like thanks. lol. it was sooo much fun. i just let loose and just had fun and didnt care what anyone else thought. and it was great cuz i know it's going to get back to kyle about keith being there. and keith took a body shot off of me too. and before he did that a friend of kyle's was talking to keith asking if he was my boyfriend and keith said yeah and he was all like i went to art class with her and all that. so i know kyle is going to hear about it. but i dont care what he thinks. i just wish i could be a fly on the wall when he is told. but i was doing it for me and to let loose not to prove anything. actually i only thought about kyle finding out once or twice. when ever i saw someone else that knew him but otherwise i ws thinking about keith and making out with all the girls. lol. i was so happy keith was there. everyone seemed to like him. harry didnt say anything to him at all and keith was like he should have said something right away instead of waiting until he has seen me a couple of times cuz then i will have all sorts of ammo for him. lol. and he was already thinking of stuff to say to him when he does say something. and then he checked to make sure i dont have any plans of moving back there. and i was saying how i would like to live someplace warm during the winter and go to chicago in the summer. and later on he was saying that he would like to live someplace warm and have a place up here. i was pretty shocked that he said that cuz i figured that he wouldnt want to do that. last night i was laying in bed next to him and it was so nice. it feels like my heart is constantly being squeezed. but in a good way. i dont know if it's going to last but i love him. he is so sweet and nice and thoughtful and ya know what there are no buts. i mean it's like i have not found one thing that i dont like about him. he is who he is and he doesnt apologize for it. he is so great. the only problem i have is that i am insecure which is something i need to work on. ya know. i just need to get it in gear and realize how damn great i am. lol. who's insecure? lol