i just wanted to add that it's not fair to say that keith doesnt have balls or that he needs to get them back. he has plenty. i am just frustrated at the way she walks all over him and he lets her. i cant stand it when someone i care about is being mistreated. but anyway i was going to wait til tomorrow to add that but i am up now cuz i cant sleep cuz i am pissed at him. he has not called since we argued this morning and i know he is out drinking now and i called him before i went to bed cuz i wanted to talk to him but he didnt answer and he would be so pissed if it was the other way around and we were fighting and i was outdrinking and didnt answer my phone. he better call me before he goes to bed or i am going to be beyond pissed in the morning. i will be unreasonable. it's nice to know that not only am i behind her on his list of priorities but i am behind softball and drinking too. i know he is just doing it to see if i will call and that is fucking bullshit. he is all high and mighty saying he doesnt play mind games and here he is not calling me cuz he wants to see when i will call. it's not that hard to call just to say hey i am busy but i will call you after the game sometime. now he is just doing it to piss me off. and that is bullshit. cuz i didnt not call him today just to piss him off i knew he was probably busy at work and then he had a softball game. but he always calls me when he is done drinking with them so if he doesnt call me when he is done tonight then i know it is just him being pety and trying to hurt me and i wont take that shit. cuz then how am i supposed to trust him. especially since i fucking called him and i know he will see that before he goes to bed so he will just not be calling me. and that will piss me off but also make me wonder what the hell he is up to that he isnt going to call even after he sees that i called. well anyway i have to get up for pilates in the morning and this isnt helping. maybe i will read somemore.