well i am going home for the weekend. i am getting pissed cuz i cannot by the ticket over the internet because my card's security number is worn off, but it's not even in bad condition, so i will have to wait for another one, and they will take this one. so then i wont have any way to get money or anything, that is crap. so i have to go an hour early tomorrow to get my ticket. that pisses me off. but anyway. i am kinda looking forward to going home but not really, like i am cuz of cheryl and elizabeth and definitly dr abramson. i seriously need to talk to him. ya know i dont know why i dont have energy when i am not taking caffine pills. i was like this in highschool too. but it's like if i dont take them then i dont feel like doing anything. i havent started exercising yet. i am such a slack ass. i will get back monday night. so i will try to start tuesday. and i will have food and stuff to make chili so that is all good. i just actually have to work out. i think in 5 weeks i could reasonably lose at least 10lbs probably more like 10-15. so by the time i actually have to buy a swimsuit i will be very close to my goal. if i just get off my ass. i have been doing more but then the eating bad when i am up here is killing it. so no more of that. just one day to eat whatever i want. and that will be only if i work out all my days during the week. i am going to miss keith alot when i am down home. that's the really crappy part about going back. but he is taking me home tonight and then picking me up monday night. so that will be alright. hopefully. i am pretty excited to see my dr again though. i have been watching the sopranos and that makes me want to go and see him, that and eat krispy kreme donuts. mmmmmm....donuts. so anyway. i will get home thursday night, friday go to the dr, maybe go to the dentist while i am down there, i think i am getting my first cavatie or how ever you spell it. then saturday is the birthday party, sunday i am thinking of taking elizabeth out to breakfast and then to toys r us to pick up her present. i also want to go to famous barr and jcpenny's cuz i know the jcpenny's down there has the stuff i like to use for my hair and i will actually be able to fit in the clothes at famous so i want to go and get some shirts and maybe a skirt. not too much stuff. but i do need a shirt for that miniskirt. so ya know. busy busy. sunday i have sunday dinner, and then on monday i am coming home, maybe i will go to tom and michelle's while i am down and ride the horses. that would be cool. and see grandma and grandpa. that's another reason i hate going home, never enough time to see everybody, and yet when i was home i never visited these people and they never visited me except cheryl and grandma.