seriously this is a freakin rollercoaster!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! we are fighting again. this is stupid. right now it is because last night, we found out the stores wouldnt be opened today so me and marisa couldnt go shopping and i jokingly said something about going back with keith and he got a look on his face and then today i find out why he didnt want me to go back with him, it was because he was going to uncle's house for easter. which is fine, i can completely understand why he wouldnt want me to be there and i didnt really think it would have been a good idea either, but it upset me that it wasnt even mentioned, it felt like he didnt mention it on purpose because he thought that i would try to push myself into going and all that. i mean this just seems like he is acting like all i want is for him to give me this commitment and all that and that i am pushing him into something he doesnt want and he cant except that that is not what i am doing because every girl he has gone out with has wanted that right away. yeah ok maybe i thought that we were moving along faster than what we were, but i thought we were seeing what happened and that was the pace it was going. and he implied that he was there too. but he is acting like i am pushing him to commit when all i ever did was ask him to be my boyfriend and even said he thought that was where we were

well anyway i am too tired to keep typing hopefully i can sleep and maybe finish this tomorrow if i am still this upset