alright well me and kenny arent fighting anymore but i dont know what the hell to do. i like him alot but i am not going to be pushed and i dont want a monogomous relationship. but i have a feeling that we wont really be friends if i tell him no more sex. but that should be an even bigger reason not to keep doing this. but i like the sex. and i like him. but i am not going to be serious about any one right now. and he is saying that if i have sex with anyone else then that is cheating on him but technically bed buddies are just casual sex. so i dont know what to do. well kenny actually said he wouldnt come see me if we didnt have sex. but i dont know if he meant it or if he was just saying it so i wont stop having sex with him but either way it's not good. cuz i would want to hang out with him even if we didnt have sex. and i am still pissed that he called me a robot. plus there's keith and john. i really like them both too. they are both really cool and fun to hang out with. and i like them both and i am not going to just say oh well and give up on them because all of a sudden kenny wants to change the rules. but i dont know. it is all starting to get very stressful. so i think i am going to just have to say no to kenny even though it sucks cuz i am not a robot i have feelings for him. i love hanging out with him and his family and everything but i dont know i definitly dont want to be tied down with someone who is going to be shallow like that and just use me for sex. cuz that's what i feel like when he says that and yes i know i am doing the same but the way i want it we could still see other people and we wouldnt be tied down like that and i would still be friends with him if we didnt have sex but the way he wants it it is like he is using me but doesnt want me to be in a position to find someone who wont use me. and now that i just realized that is how it is. i realized that is not what i want at all. it just doesnt work for me like that and i am not going to be with just one person right now. but see the thing is if he would have waited until after i got a job that is how it would have turned out because i wouldnt have time to date, so he would have me all to himself anyway. and i would have been fine with that. but i dont know i guess i would have still dated here and there but it would not have been nearly as much. but oh well. i am so tired right now. and this is really long so i have to take a nap.