this is from the first blog that i had but i couldnt get back into it so i had to make this one
Thursday, October 30, 2003
wow three in one day. who's bored? lol. well ok i figured i would call michael and just leave a message and he would get back to me in a day or so. when ever he wasnt working so much. and just to say i did call. well any way he called me back. and ya know what's really sad. i mean really really sad. i am backed to obsessed. :..( i am so pathetic!!!! but i cant help it. his voice is soooo nice. and he was all i am soo glad you finally called. cuz i know you said you felt the same way but i just wanted to see if you were really interested and see if you would try. (maybe i should show him this blog? no? probably not cuz then he would know how crazy i am.) so then i was all i did call and all that but then he was like i only have a few minutes cuz i am at work but i'll call you tomorrow!!! yea!! i am so happy. he's damn sexy. and it doesnt help that before he called i was having some seriously dirty thoughts about him. (but you dont want to hear about those) well any way i will put up a blog tomorrow after we talk and be disgustingly pathetic.
Damn It!!!!! i knew it!! i just knew as soon as i decided not to waste anymore time on michael i would hear from him. he was all like why didnt you call me. and i was like i did i left a message and he was all oh i didnt get the message. and then we chatted back and forth a bit and then out of no where he was like have you ever been with a girl and i was like well i have kissed one before and then he was like would you ever want to do that with me. (what the hell!!) i was like i dunno maybe. but i dunno i get jealous and my x (the moron) kinda ruined stuff like that for me. so now he is either a perv. (since we only went on one date, i mean i know i am new to this whole dating scene but dont ya normally wait before you ask something like that) or he is a guy and like all guys is asking cuz you never know or he feels really comfortable with me or he thinks i am just a big ol slut. not someone you would want to have a relationship with.
but i figured i could go out with him again and see if he was just being a guy or he seriously wants to do that. have a little discussion about it. but this will definitly help me to not be quite so obsessed. i'll see where it goes. but look on the bright side even if he is a perv then i will have a pretty interesting log after the date. lol
alright. i am going to try not to type anything more about michael. i said try so i might have a relapse here and there. but i figure it's stupid to dwell on it. either he's gonna call or he's not. and if he doesnt i will find another guy who is just as great but better because he will call. sometimes i dwell. i cant help it. well any way so kenny came over last night to help with the shelves. we got one up. lol. when we went to put the other one up we realized we needed anchors. so anyway. he so kept trying to get in my pants but what can ya expect. lol. well i was supposed to take him out but then he wanted to go to the cheesecake factory (even though he cant eat cheese cake cuz he's allergic to sugar) so any way. he had me try the calamari (squid) and once i got past how nasty squids are it was actually pretty good. kinda like onion rings. i didnt eat the big parts though just the small ones. so any way it was kinda expensive so kenny paid. but then i felt bad. and we talked about our bad dates with people from yahoo and laughed. lol. i am probably going to go to great expectations cuz they have a pretty tight screening process and they have social events where i could meet other women and make friends too instead of just meeting guys. but they are kinda expensive. we will see. oh yeah and when i signed on today guess who i had an email from and who put me back on his friends list. James, one night stand #1. hmmm. how bout that. he was oh yeah i would do you again. and then i was all whats your name again. lol. but i asked what he had been up to and i figure if he wants to hang out sometime that would cool. but i definitely wont be hitting that again. i probably shouldnt even have emailed him back but oh well. that was pretty crappy of him to wait like 3 weeks to email me and this was after he put me on his ignore list (which was stupid cuz i only emailed him once after that and then it was just like a hey whats up kinda thing) so i dunno. he probably just doesnt have any good prospects lined up so he thought he would see if i would want to just screw around. poor james. oh well. i am sure we could hang out and have a blast though. i think i am done with sex for awhile. at least sex with other people. i still got all the hormones going haywire so i cant ignore it completely. especially since sex is all i think about. i feel like a guy. well any way i got to do laundry and get groceries and do all that other good domestic stuff. i might write more later if i get bored. hmmm maybe i should try doing some homework......nah.
Wednesday, October 29, 2003
see guys this is what happens when you lead a girl on and say she's awesome and you cant wait to see her again. we start sounding like yesterdays blog. well any way i think by now i am officially obsessed. maybe he is planning it that way. cant stop thinking about him. he's the type of guy that you just want to spend all weekend in bed with. and i cant stop thinking about what it would be like to spend all weekend in bed with him. sigh. i am pathetic. and it is only getting worse. i was hoping i would only put him in one or 2 blogs here and there but i was wrong. well any way i went to the dr for my strep throat and i have to go back on nov. 6 for a check up. so better get on that insurance. maybe that is why i am thinking about him now. he works at the hospital that i went to. damn. oh well had to go. ya know he was the one that was all i cant wait to see you, i had such a great time, let's join a pool league together all the people are great and you'll meet some more friends, i really want to see you again. i never said any of that first. i agreed with him and said me too cuz i did have a great time and i really like him but he said it all first and he contacted me and said all these really romantic things to me. so why the hell would he do that and then just not call or anything. (besides sex. cuz he said all this not only after sex but after he was out the door and all clear.) so here i am blabbing about him again. i just dont get it. i really hope he is just busy with work and he's best friends wedding and all that. but this is kinda good because maybe i will get him out of my system a little before i see him again so i dont become really crazy. and then i can see if i really like him or if it's just the stupid left over emotions from having sex with him. but i dont think that is completely it because i really liked him before we had sex. but having sex with him definitly didnt help. but see i talked to his friend for a sec. (long story but she didnt think i was real) and she said that he said (and he was gone when she said this) that his heart was beating so fast he didnt want to leave after we hung out the first time. and then he called me to ask me if i wanted to do something with him that night. but at least this way it is going to help us take it slow. but then again i am probably having this imaginary relationship because he has probably forgotten all about me by now. i am pathetic. probably type more later cuz i cant do anything yet and i am incredibly bored.
Tuesday, October 28, 2003
well i chatted on and off with kenny most of the day. he cracks me up. i also went to buy a book on blogging which actually helped a bit. found a skin for my blog and all. but i am thinking of returning it and just ordering the one off of the blogger site. i am such a loser for being like that about michael. he's just a guy. there are plenty more. i say that yet i still want him to call me. sometimes being a girl really sucks. but usually only when dealing with guys. well i am not intentionally trying to turn this into a guy bashing page cuz thats not fair but right now you all kinda suck. no offense i know you've thought like that about women from time to time. i havent had a nap all day so right now i am dragging ass. especially cuz i did so much earlier. staying home sick sucks. i am so bored. hence the really long blogs and 2 in one day. damn this dayquil. oh well tomorrow i have to get up bright and early for the dr. yippie. a waste of money. but the cleaning service is also coming tomorrow so i will have a clean house sometime. now i just need to figure out what to do for the 2 hrs they will be here since i cant go to school. hmmmm shopping anyone. i ordered a few things online this morning. cant wait til they get here. didnt make it downtown though. oh well... well i think it is nap time for me. i am zoning out like crazy.
that first blog is way too long. well today i started project organization. i bought some shelves. lol. i also finally got around to hanging up the coat rack and the thing for the bills. unfortunatly i cant get the shelves up by myself. (they are kinda big) so i am debating on whether or not i should ask kenny. i was thinking of offering to buy him dinner for the help. he instant messaged me last night when i was typing the first blog. he wanted to apologize cuz earlier he was wanting to get serious. but now he says that if i dont want to be in a serious relationship that he would be ok with being bed buddies. (WHAT!!) can you believe that? i dont know. that is kinda ridiculous. but i guess i cant blame him he is a guy. and he probably figures it couldnt hurt to ask. lol. well anyway. i got up and went to do a few errands. and i just jumped in the shower threw some clothes on and put on my coat and scarf. not caring what i looked like cuz i am sick and all. but the ironic thing is. several guys smiled at me and held doors for me and all that. hmmmm. interesting. unfortunatly all i could think about was michael. i am in love with an imaginary man. he cant possibly be as good as i think he is. especially since he will not call me. but i cant help it. just thinking of him makes me happy and makes me smile. and deep down even though i know i will never see him again i just cant believe it. it's very crazy that i can feel this strongly about someone after one date and be more upset with the fact that i wont see him again than i was when the moron (that's my pet name for my x) broke up with me. it is all in my head i know but i desperately want to believe that he is what he seems. i am completely and utterly hopeless. it's so pathetic. it's pathetic that thinking about him makes me so happy and i get a big goofy grin. after one date. i know i am crazy but i cant help it. i am not in love with him but i just liked being around him. and it was nice to think that there are other people in the world that are nice. maybe that is why i am still in denial about him not calling because i dont want to believe that he is not nice and that he is not a good person. but then again if he doesnt call he could still be a good person and it could all just be me. cuz right now i wouldnt doubt it cuz i sound crazy. well kenny imed me again. he is going to come over tomorrow and help me and then i am going to take him out. and he asked if i would go with him on saturday for his brother's birthday dinner with his parents. so i said ok. what the hell. i am sure we will have a good time. i am glad he is going to help me with the shelves though. i just need help holding them up so i can screw them in. well i might write more later. but this is getting pretty long too.
Monday, October 27, 2003
this is such a crazy concept. I love it. i accidentally came across this guy's blog one day and i became completely obsessed. i was like what is this. it is so weird it was like sneaking in and reading someone elses journal. and since i am kinda nosey i couldnt stop. i dont think i will actually be interesting to anyone but i just had to start one of my own. basically out of boredom because i just moved here in august and i dont have much of a social life yet (not that i ever had one to begin with) but also because i am actually spending alot of time on the internet and it gives me something to do. well lets see like i said i just moved here. i came here because i have always wanted to move to chicago and to go to school. i have one friend so far. she is awesome and she was there for me when my jackass boyfriend broke up with me and she is helping me adjust to city life. there's some other cool people i met but i wouldnt consider them friends. yet anyway. well right now the most interesting thing in my life is my dating. which is not going so well so far. but considering i am 21 and have never dated before this month it makes sense that i am not doing so great. first of all like i said my jackass ex broke up with me. (after 6 yrs and he was a real dick about it but there's plenty of time for that later) so any way. i have been on 5 dates in the last 3 weeks. not a bad start, but the first one ended up being a one night stand (not on my part. i admit i didnt want a relationship with him but i would have liked to be friends. he was kinda cool to hang out with but seriously what was i thinking) then the next 2 were fun. but one guy ended up saying he was in love with me the next day (what's with that....crazy) and the other one was really fun. we went to see killbill and we had alot of crazy stuff in common but he wasnt really my type physically and he compared me to his mom. (ok guys... seriously dont ever do that...no... not ever.) but he was fun to hang out with. then there was michael. apparently also a one night stand. which sucks cuz he was so awesome and we had so much fun. i would actually want to be serious about him someday. he was just that awesome. (i will probably mention more about him later because i am still foolishly hoping we will hang out even though i know better) but anyway. i am pretty sure he completely played me and i was more than happily willing to let him. didnt mean to sleep with him. wanted to seriously take it slow especially since james (one night stand #1) but his kisses were so damn nice and i thought he actually liked me. silly silly rabbit. well anyway we have talked a few times and he called to ask me if he could ask me out again but he seemed kinda weird the last time we chatted and i havent heard from him since last thursday and i left a message for him but he didnt return it. i am still (as i stated earlier) foolishly hoping he was just busy. we shall see. i am kinda holding my breath but that doesnt mean i am going to sit and wait. so then there was kenny. i went out with him on saturday. even though i have strep throat. but he still wanted to go. he was very sweet and really fun to hang out with but i dunno. maybe just friends. dont really see anything happening beyond that but maybe that is because i am still daydreaming about michaels kisses. well we will see what is coming up in the next few weeks for my dating life. i was supposed to have a date sunday too but he never called. i wasnt surprised cuz i figured he just wanted to get it on. so i just stayed in bed all day cuz i was a zombie on some dayquil. tomorrow i am going shopping. cant wait. oh by the way i was idiotically meeting these guys on yahoo. cuz i thought that way i might actually be asked out (and i was and it was nice cuz everyday i had some emails telling me how nice my smile is and how amazing my eyes are and all that..so great confidence booster. unfortunately there are pervs on there and i was constantly being imed by them wanting to know if i would like to dominate them and all that other nasty stuff. but anyway there were some great guys on there too but i ended up taking my profile off because i was sick of all the pervs instant messaging me.) well anyway this is getting way too long and i lost my train of thought (damn dayquil) but i will probably write a whole lot more tomorrow because i will be just as bored. well i read back over all this and ya know 2 one night stands in 3 weeks seems kinda slutty. but you have to remeber i was with 1 guy for six yrs. and the last 3 i was only getting it about 1x a week and it really wasnt that great cuz he was selfish and never wanted to learn any new tricks. that was my job. so now i am pretty much going boy crazy and having all those wonderful teenage hormones at 21. how nice. but i did learn one thing. there are guys out there that can treat a woman with respect and make her feel really special and that not all guys are jerks(not talking about the one night stands here or any of my other dates all though they were nice and everything but i am just saying in general, it can happen). (even if they still insist on saying they will call even when we all know you wont.) but i guess that is one of life's great mysteries like why women go to the bathroom in groups. well any way i just chatted with ken for like 2 hrs at least. and now i am very tired i havent stayed awake for this long of a period of time for 2 days!!!
wow three in one day. who's bored? lol. well ok i figured i would call michael and just leave a message and he would get back to me in a day or so. when ever he wasnt working so much. and just to say i did call. well any way he called me back. and ya know what's really sad. i mean really really sad. i am backed to obsessed. :..( i am so pathetic!!!! but i cant help it. his voice is soooo nice. and he was all i am soo glad you finally called. cuz i know you said you felt the same way but i just wanted to see if you were really interested and see if you would try. (maybe i should show him this blog? no? probably not cuz then he would know how crazy i am.) so then i was all i did call and all that but then he was like i only have a few minutes cuz i am at work but i'll call you tomorrow!!! yea!! i am so happy. he's damn sexy. and it doesnt help that before he called i was having some seriously dirty thoughts about him. (but you dont want to hear about those) well any way i will put up a blog tomorrow after we talk and be disgustingly pathetic.
Damn It!!!!! i knew it!! i just knew as soon as i decided not to waste anymore time on michael i would hear from him. he was all like why didnt you call me. and i was like i did i left a message and he was all oh i didnt get the message. and then we chatted back and forth a bit and then out of no where he was like have you ever been with a girl and i was like well i have kissed one before and then he was like would you ever want to do that with me. (what the hell!!) i was like i dunno maybe. but i dunno i get jealous and my x (the moron) kinda ruined stuff like that for me. so now he is either a perv. (since we only went on one date, i mean i know i am new to this whole dating scene but dont ya normally wait before you ask something like that) or he is a guy and like all guys is asking cuz you never know or he feels really comfortable with me or he thinks i am just a big ol slut. not someone you would want to have a relationship with.
but i figured i could go out with him again and see if he was just being a guy or he seriously wants to do that. have a little discussion about it. but this will definitly help me to not be quite so obsessed. i'll see where it goes. but look on the bright side even if he is a perv then i will have a pretty interesting log after the date. lol
alright. i am going to try not to type anything more about michael. i said try so i might have a relapse here and there. but i figure it's stupid to dwell on it. either he's gonna call or he's not. and if he doesnt i will find another guy who is just as great but better because he will call. sometimes i dwell. i cant help it. well any way so kenny came over last night to help with the shelves. we got one up. lol. when we went to put the other one up we realized we needed anchors. so anyway. he so kept trying to get in my pants but what can ya expect. lol. well i was supposed to take him out but then he wanted to go to the cheesecake factory (even though he cant eat cheese cake cuz he's allergic to sugar) so any way. he had me try the calamari (squid) and once i got past how nasty squids are it was actually pretty good. kinda like onion rings. i didnt eat the big parts though just the small ones. so any way it was kinda expensive so kenny paid. but then i felt bad. and we talked about our bad dates with people from yahoo and laughed. lol. i am probably going to go to great expectations cuz they have a pretty tight screening process and they have social events where i could meet other women and make friends too instead of just meeting guys. but they are kinda expensive. we will see. oh yeah and when i signed on today guess who i had an email from and who put me back on his friends list. James, one night stand #1. hmmm. how bout that. he was oh yeah i would do you again. and then i was all whats your name again. lol. but i asked what he had been up to and i figure if he wants to hang out sometime that would cool. but i definitely wont be hitting that again. i probably shouldnt even have emailed him back but oh well. that was pretty crappy of him to wait like 3 weeks to email me and this was after he put me on his ignore list (which was stupid cuz i only emailed him once after that and then it was just like a hey whats up kinda thing) so i dunno. he probably just doesnt have any good prospects lined up so he thought he would see if i would want to just screw around. poor james. oh well. i am sure we could hang out and have a blast though. i think i am done with sex for awhile. at least sex with other people. i still got all the hormones going haywire so i cant ignore it completely. especially since sex is all i think about. i feel like a guy. well any way i got to do laundry and get groceries and do all that other good domestic stuff. i might write more later if i get bored. hmmm maybe i should try doing some homework......nah.
Wednesday, October 29, 2003
see guys this is what happens when you lead a girl on and say she's awesome and you cant wait to see her again. we start sounding like yesterdays blog. well any way i think by now i am officially obsessed. maybe he is planning it that way. cant stop thinking about him. he's the type of guy that you just want to spend all weekend in bed with. and i cant stop thinking about what it would be like to spend all weekend in bed with him. sigh. i am pathetic. and it is only getting worse. i was hoping i would only put him in one or 2 blogs here and there but i was wrong. well any way i went to the dr for my strep throat and i have to go back on nov. 6 for a check up. so better get on that insurance. maybe that is why i am thinking about him now. he works at the hospital that i went to. damn. oh well had to go. ya know he was the one that was all i cant wait to see you, i had such a great time, let's join a pool league together all the people are great and you'll meet some more friends, i really want to see you again. i never said any of that first. i agreed with him and said me too cuz i did have a great time and i really like him but he said it all first and he contacted me and said all these really romantic things to me. so why the hell would he do that and then just not call or anything. (besides sex. cuz he said all this not only after sex but after he was out the door and all clear.) so here i am blabbing about him again. i just dont get it. i really hope he is just busy with work and he's best friends wedding and all that. but this is kinda good because maybe i will get him out of my system a little before i see him again so i dont become really crazy. and then i can see if i really like him or if it's just the stupid left over emotions from having sex with him. but i dont think that is completely it because i really liked him before we had sex. but having sex with him definitly didnt help. but see i talked to his friend for a sec. (long story but she didnt think i was real) and she said that he said (and he was gone when she said this) that his heart was beating so fast he didnt want to leave after we hung out the first time. and then he called me to ask me if i wanted to do something with him that night. but at least this way it is going to help us take it slow. but then again i am probably having this imaginary relationship because he has probably forgotten all about me by now. i am pathetic. probably type more later cuz i cant do anything yet and i am incredibly bored.
Tuesday, October 28, 2003
well i chatted on and off with kenny most of the day. he cracks me up. i also went to buy a book on blogging which actually helped a bit. found a skin for my blog and all. but i am thinking of returning it and just ordering the one off of the blogger site. i am such a loser for being like that about michael. he's just a guy. there are plenty more. i say that yet i still want him to call me. sometimes being a girl really sucks. but usually only when dealing with guys. well i am not intentionally trying to turn this into a guy bashing page cuz thats not fair but right now you all kinda suck. no offense i know you've thought like that about women from time to time. i havent had a nap all day so right now i am dragging ass. especially cuz i did so much earlier. staying home sick sucks. i am so bored. hence the really long blogs and 2 in one day. damn this dayquil. oh well tomorrow i have to get up bright and early for the dr. yippie. a waste of money. but the cleaning service is also coming tomorrow so i will have a clean house sometime. now i just need to figure out what to do for the 2 hrs they will be here since i cant go to school. hmmmm shopping anyone. i ordered a few things online this morning. cant wait til they get here. didnt make it downtown though. oh well... well i think it is nap time for me. i am zoning out like crazy.
that first blog is way too long. well today i started project organization. i bought some shelves. lol. i also finally got around to hanging up the coat rack and the thing for the bills. unfortunatly i cant get the shelves up by myself. (they are kinda big) so i am debating on whether or not i should ask kenny. i was thinking of offering to buy him dinner for the help. he instant messaged me last night when i was typing the first blog. he wanted to apologize cuz earlier he was wanting to get serious. but now he says that if i dont want to be in a serious relationship that he would be ok with being bed buddies. (WHAT!!) can you believe that? i dont know. that is kinda ridiculous. but i guess i cant blame him he is a guy. and he probably figures it couldnt hurt to ask. lol. well anyway. i got up and went to do a few errands. and i just jumped in the shower threw some clothes on and put on my coat and scarf. not caring what i looked like cuz i am sick and all. but the ironic thing is. several guys smiled at me and held doors for me and all that. hmmmm. interesting. unfortunatly all i could think about was michael. i am in love with an imaginary man. he cant possibly be as good as i think he is. especially since he will not call me. but i cant help it. just thinking of him makes me happy and makes me smile. and deep down even though i know i will never see him again i just cant believe it. it's very crazy that i can feel this strongly about someone after one date and be more upset with the fact that i wont see him again than i was when the moron (that's my pet name for my x) broke up with me. it is all in my head i know but i desperately want to believe that he is what he seems. i am completely and utterly hopeless. it's so pathetic. it's pathetic that thinking about him makes me so happy and i get a big goofy grin. after one date. i know i am crazy but i cant help it. i am not in love with him but i just liked being around him. and it was nice to think that there are other people in the world that are nice. maybe that is why i am still in denial about him not calling because i dont want to believe that he is not nice and that he is not a good person. but then again if he doesnt call he could still be a good person and it could all just be me. cuz right now i wouldnt doubt it cuz i sound crazy. well kenny imed me again. he is going to come over tomorrow and help me and then i am going to take him out. and he asked if i would go with him on saturday for his brother's birthday dinner with his parents. so i said ok. what the hell. i am sure we will have a good time. i am glad he is going to help me with the shelves though. i just need help holding them up so i can screw them in. well i might write more later. but this is getting pretty long too.
Monday, October 27, 2003
this is such a crazy concept. I love it. i accidentally came across this guy's blog one day and i became completely obsessed. i was like what is this. it is so weird it was like sneaking in and reading someone elses journal. and since i am kinda nosey i couldnt stop. i dont think i will actually be interesting to anyone but i just had to start one of my own. basically out of boredom because i just moved here in august and i dont have much of a social life yet (not that i ever had one to begin with) but also because i am actually spending alot of time on the internet and it gives me something to do. well lets see like i said i just moved here. i came here because i have always wanted to move to chicago and to go to school. i have one friend so far. she is awesome and she was there for me when my jackass boyfriend broke up with me and she is helping me adjust to city life. there's some other cool people i met but i wouldnt consider them friends. yet anyway. well right now the most interesting thing in my life is my dating. which is not going so well so far. but considering i am 21 and have never dated before this month it makes sense that i am not doing so great. first of all like i said my jackass ex broke up with me. (after 6 yrs and he was a real dick about it but there's plenty of time for that later) so any way. i have been on 5 dates in the last 3 weeks. not a bad start, but the first one ended up being a one night stand (not on my part. i admit i didnt want a relationship with him but i would have liked to be friends. he was kinda cool to hang out with but seriously what was i thinking) then the next 2 were fun. but one guy ended up saying he was in love with me the next day (what's with that....crazy) and the other one was really fun. we went to see killbill and we had alot of crazy stuff in common but he wasnt really my type physically and he compared me to his mom. (ok guys... seriously dont ever do that...no... not ever.) but he was fun to hang out with. then there was michael. apparently also a one night stand. which sucks cuz he was so awesome and we had so much fun. i would actually want to be serious about him someday. he was just that awesome. (i will probably mention more about him later because i am still foolishly hoping we will hang out even though i know better) but anyway. i am pretty sure he completely played me and i was more than happily willing to let him. didnt mean to sleep with him. wanted to seriously take it slow especially since james (one night stand #1) but his kisses were so damn nice and i thought he actually liked me. silly silly rabbit. well anyway we have talked a few times and he called to ask me if he could ask me out again but he seemed kinda weird the last time we chatted and i havent heard from him since last thursday and i left a message for him but he didnt return it. i am still (as i stated earlier) foolishly hoping he was just busy. we shall see. i am kinda holding my breath but that doesnt mean i am going to sit and wait. so then there was kenny. i went out with him on saturday. even though i have strep throat. but he still wanted to go. he was very sweet and really fun to hang out with but i dunno. maybe just friends. dont really see anything happening beyond that but maybe that is because i am still daydreaming about michaels kisses. well we will see what is coming up in the next few weeks for my dating life. i was supposed to have a date sunday too but he never called. i wasnt surprised cuz i figured he just wanted to get it on. so i just stayed in bed all day cuz i was a zombie on some dayquil. tomorrow i am going shopping. cant wait. oh by the way i was idiotically meeting these guys on yahoo. cuz i thought that way i might actually be asked out (and i was and it was nice cuz everyday i had some emails telling me how nice my smile is and how amazing my eyes are and all that..so great confidence booster. unfortunately there are pervs on there and i was constantly being imed by them wanting to know if i would like to dominate them and all that other nasty stuff. but anyway there were some great guys on there too but i ended up taking my profile off because i was sick of all the pervs instant messaging me.) well anyway this is getting way too long and i lost my train of thought (damn dayquil) but i will probably write a whole lot more tomorrow because i will be just as bored. well i read back over all this and ya know 2 one night stands in 3 weeks seems kinda slutty. but you have to remeber i was with 1 guy for six yrs. and the last 3 i was only getting it about 1x a week and it really wasnt that great cuz he was selfish and never wanted to learn any new tricks. that was my job. so now i am pretty much going boy crazy and having all those wonderful teenage hormones at 21. how nice. but i did learn one thing. there are guys out there that can treat a woman with respect and make her feel really special and that not all guys are jerks(not talking about the one night stands here or any of my other dates all though they were nice and everything but i am just saying in general, it can happen). (even if they still insist on saying they will call even when we all know you wont.) but i guess that is one of life's great mysteries like why women go to the bathroom in groups. well any way i just chatted with ken for like 2 hrs at least. and now i am very tired i havent stayed awake for this long of a period of time for 2 days!!!
posted by :D at 12:01 PM
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